How am i gonna live a good & normal life when you have an alcoholic father?
My biological father is an alcoholic way back before i was born. My mom couldn’t handle his abusive behavior that she left us when i was 6 & went to another country.My grandma took care of me while my grandfather supported us financially. My dad didn’t finish high school & was more interested in hanging out with his alcoholic friends.He has been jobless ever since & doesn’t care about working to earn a living since he was dependent on my grandfather. Since i was a child, i live in guilt, shame, anger & fear bec. everytime he comes home drunk, he is a loudmouth, angry & wouldn’t care less if the stereo’s speakers was blasting so loud late at night in our apartment that neighbors complain about how nuisance we are.I feel so much shame as i hid in my room crying with much hurt & pain waiting for the nightmare to end. I had low self-esteem.I get so angry at him that in my mind i wanted him to die or I would think of killing myselfThings became more difficult for me when my grandmother had a stroke & Alzheimer’s that I could no longer lean on her anymore for comfort.For years, the nightmare brought by my father continued & so is my darkest moments of despair as I try to focus on my studies while hiding in my room bearing the hurt & shame.Yes there are normal days when he is sober but when he is drunk & rowdy again, it seems that the bright & sunny world I once knew suddenly turn stormy as hell for me.I feel I wanna run away, scream, cry & shout but nobody listens & understands. By God’s grace I was able to finish Business Administration in College.I am 21 now but my dad still has his habit. He tends to quit for a few days or weeks but then he goes back to drinking again esp. when he gets to save money that my well-off aunt gives him allowance daily out of sympathy.My aunt takes care of the utilities since my grandmother, their mother, lives together with us in the apartment. I took the graveyard shift cashier job in an Internet café that my aunt owns as a way of escape & avoid experiencing the trauma to avoid my father’s drunkenness as much as possible. But fate seems to be playing at me bec. my dad sometimes is drunk early in the morning or in the afternoon & it leaves me so bitter & angry again towards him, others around me & myself. I get so angry again that I swear & cursed my own father. As a Christian, this really saddens me & is so hard for me to try to live a life without anger & hate when life itself forces me to do so. I feel so alone & dejected. I never have a boyfriend maybe bec. I don’t seem to trust men or have not found yet found someone who would be serious & accept my family’s situation. I still pray that one day my dad would finally finally quit drinking & be a real father to me. In our Asian country, I don’t know yet if we have support groups like Al-Anon. Right now, I am dying to settle a normal life for awhile but I am still anxious at the moment bec. I still can’t find a decent job once I quit the cashier job. And if I get a new daytime job, I dreaded the thought if I have to live again the nightmare when my dad gets hooked to drinking again in the evenings. I am so sick & tired of living this way.In our culture is really different bec. children are still responsible for their parents even when they are beyond 18 years of age. But now I plan to rent a place of my own so I could have a peaceful place to run to when I come home and find him drunk again. I think I couldn’t bear any longer like before. I had enough of the trauma since I was a kid. Am I being selfish if I will start to live on my own and try hard to escape from home when he gets drunk? But my grandmother is still living in our apartment and I don’t want to leave her when I know she has short time left with us. But I am really affected by my dad’s alcoholism. I tried to advise him but the advise just feel on deaf ears. I must admit we don’t talk so much at all and I am not open to him bec. it’s hard to establish a close relationship with him bec. he tends to easily misinterpret and get angry at things bec. a dominant person he is. I am anxious also since I will be the one to take care of my father’s allowance bec. my aunt made a deal that she will quit giving help to my dad if I quit working at the café.That would mean it will be hard to save or there won’t enough left for me to save and being financially stable on my own feels completely out of reach for me. Please I need some advise ,I am really confuse.
do you think this is a good titanic report so far?
The Titanic is one of the most famous passenger ships in history. Ever since 1908, when it started to be built, until today, people have been fascinated by it. For some people it may be because of its size and grandness, or maybe because of its sinking and re-discovery. For me, it is all of these things. I have always been interested in the Titanic and I knew a lot about it before we even started brainstorming. There is always more to learn though, so I chose to do my project on the Titanic.
By doing this project, I hoped to learn new things about this famous ship. Since I already knew so much, I did not know if this was going to work. When I started researching, I did not have anything particular that I wanted to learn. It turns out that I really did not know everything and I learned a lot of new facts. I am really glad that I chose to do this topic.
I started doing research by searching for informational websites about the Titanic. Since websites are not always creditable, I decided to look for new ways to find information. I looked in books, encyclopedias, and magazines. I watched many television shows also. I took notes on the computer and put them into my subtopics. This was really helpful because I could just take the notes from there to write my report. I did not really come to any problems. Because of the popularity of the fate of the Titanic, there are many interesting books, newspaper articles, websites, museum exhibits, and documentaries that were available to assist my research. (or) Because the Titanic is so well known, there were many websites, books, magazine articles, and television shows about it. (which sentence should I put here?)
Since the Titanic was the biggest ship of its time, the building of it was a huge deal to everyone who heard about it. The Harland and Wolff Company started to think about building a luxurious ship in 1907. In 1908 the construction finally began in Belfast, Ireland. Thomas Andrews, the head of the Harland & Wolff design department, designed the ship to be the grandest in the world. He also wanted it to be, “practically unsinkable.” He designed it with a double hull and put in 16 watertight compartments. If even two of the middle compartments, or four of the front, flooded, the Titanic would still stay afloat. With all of these features, the Titanic cost about $7.5 million, which is equivalent to about $400 million today. About 15,000 people worked to build the ship. Each worker was paid only about $10 dollars a week on average.
There were many features on the Titanic that were unheard of at the time. It was 882 ½ feet long. If it were to stand straight up it would have been taller than any of the buildings of its time. The Titanic had the first ocean liner swimming pool. One of its very well known features is the grand staircase. Only 1st class passengers were allowed to use this magnificent staircase with oak railings and paneling. Another feature was the gymnasium. 1st class passengers could use this to work out whenever they pleased. Along with these, the Titanic also had a Turkish bath, smoking room, dining saloon, café Parisian, palm court, writing room, reception room, lounge, and very spacious decks.
Captain Edward John Smith was the captain of the Titanic. He was born on January 27, 1850 in Hanley stoke, England to Edward and Catherine Smith. When Smith left for his last trip before retiring, he left behind his wife, Eleanor, and his young daughter, Helen. He was planning to retire after this voyage. Captain Smith has been described as, “solidly built, slightly above medium height, and handsome in a patriarchal sort of way. His neatly trimmed white beard, coupled with his clear eyes, gave him a somewhat stern countenance, an impression immediately dispelled by his gentle speaking voice and urbane manners.” The captain’s salary was 1250 English pounds per year or about $1786.46.Passengers and crew members called him ‘E.J’ (short for Edward John.) He was 62 when he went down with the ship.
The Titanic’s maiden trans-Atlantic voyage was on April 10, 1912. No one ever dreamed that its first voyage would also be its last. When it left Southampton, England to go to New York, there was a huge crowd watching it leave for the first time. Everyone was interested in what the press called “the practically unsinkable ship.” (need to finish the sinking paragraphs still)
Over the years, there have been many theories about how the Titanic sank. One is Robin Gardiner’s theory. He believed that the sinking of the Titanic was an insurance scam and that the ship that sank was not the Titanic at all. Another theory is the mummy curse. There is an urban legend that a mummy, which supposedly gave the museum where it was held bad luck, was sold to a man. The man was afraid that the mummy would not be able to board the ship because of its reputation. Because of this, he supposedly hit the mummy under the body of his car to sail across the Atlantic. It is
what can I do to make my life more interesting?
Hi. I’m 13. I live in Maryland. I hate it here. My life is so boring. There are all these things that I want to do, but I can’t because my family doesn’t want to. Some of these things are:
Travel to Australia, Africa, Asia; Attend more cultural events in nearby DC; See more theatre performances; Go to museums and art galleries more often
I know that I’m advanced for my age. My family is just soooo boring. They don’t want to do anything but stay home all weekend and I hate it. I know I’m too young to move out, but honestly, if I was 5 years older and living on my own, I’d be doing all of these things and more. What can I do to make my life more interesting. I also hate living in a suburb, but my dad says that we have to live here and we can’t move because I go to like a #1 school in the country. I want to move really badly to New York or California, and I’d even consider Massachusetts, Oregon, or Washington State. I tell my parents that I’d like to do these things and they say either
Do them with friends (which is impossible because two 13/14 year olds can’t go to another country together, go to DC together, go to a theatre performance together, or museums or galleries together, because there would have to be some parent involvement and my parents want to have nothing to do with it)
or Do them when you’re older (which, I will, but I want so badly to do them now).
I hate my life. I hate my school. I have very few friends and no friends at school, and my age limits me from doing all these things I want to do. My parents tell me that these are the best times of my life and I just don’t realise it, but I am 100% sure that this is one of the worst times of my life. They say “Wait until you have to go out into the work world” and I am looking forward to doing that, actually. I am doing everything I can to make sure that I have to spend as little time in this area as possible. I figured it out that I can live here for 2 more years if I study abroad in 11th grade, and skip 12th by doing summer courses in English and Math the summer after 11th. I plan on going to live in Europe for what was supposed to be my 12th grade year and then going to a good college and studying French, German, and Russian. Then, I plan on becoming a translator/interpreter and living in Europe or maybe Canada or a more interesting place in the US. I don’t like my family that much, because they are boring. The only interesting person in my family is my grandma, and she is so cool. She is a multi-millionaire. She lives in New York City. She has so many college degrees. She travels to Europe all the time and even owns a café in New York. Oh, and she used to live in France and speaks fluent French, she went to China for about a month, and she’s been to every continent, too. I beg my parents to let me move to New York and live with her, but my dad says that NY City schools are bad, and I’m like “Hello, private!” but, he wants me to stay here. I just want to turn 16, so then, I can start going to New York and other places on a regular basis (not so I’ll be able to drive, because cars are bad for the environment. So I can take trains to New York without my parents and because I’ll be allowed on planes alone then). Oh, yeah, and I hate my school because our subjects are so boring, except French.
English-Okay, I speak the language fluently and I use relatively good grammar.
Math-I have thought it over many times and translators don’t need math. Yes, everyone needs basic math, but I’m taking algebra courses here, which you don’t need.
Science-I really don’t care about all this. Leave it to Scientists. It confuses me so much.
History-I should love History and I actually do, but not what I’m being taught. I loved it in the last two years, I did geography and studied the Middle East, Africa, Asia, Europe, Russia, Canada, South America, Mexico, Central America, and the Caribbean. However, now I am spending the year studying American history which is a very short history and it doesn’t make sense that I got 2 quarters of European history (which is over 4000 years long), but I spend 1 year studying American history, which is about 400 years long.
Reading-It’s the same as English. I don’t know why I have 2 separate classes, one called Reading and one called English. Well, anyways, I can read and I do read travel guide books, art books, theatre books, and language books a lot.
So, there you have it. I’m dissatisfied with my life and I want to know what I can do to make it more interesting, because it’s just going really crappy right now.
I’m not Christian. I never have been, have never had the desire to become on, and I never will. Religion is not the issue here.
I’m Jewish, by the way.
AUSTIN TX VS. HOUSTON TX?
I am an artest, i do everything from Music, To Acting, To Skateboarding, To art! i lived in houston for 20 years of my life but never really gave it the chance, now that i am in louisiana i miss houston, and soon planning to move back. but now i dont know if i want to go to houston, or try austin out. i have a feeling i would love austin but houston has been my home for so long, should i try something new and go to austin or should i expriance houston a little more???? I want to meet people who are just like me into music skating art and see the world in a hole different way! How is the music scence in both?? I am more of an out doors person. i like to sitt in cafes and have some coffe, i like to go listen to bands play and jam out, i like to sit in the grass and just laugh, i like to have lunch near the rivers. but at the same time i lovvee crazyy cool spots. nice cafes clubs resterants!
hELP MEE!!!
